My stomach is once again riding the anxiety merry-go-round after having made a safe dismount recently.
Got the call a bit ago that the court visitor will be out tomorrow afternoon.
I feel like I haven't been able to breathe since I spoke with her. She was very nice, and she tried to reassure me, when I told her of the anxiety since we started the proceedings. She asked me why we were so stressed. I told her that even though we know that the chance of something going wrong is .00000001%, that the mere thought of that .00000001% going wrong is enough to stress out parents who absolutely adore their children. That we have every intention of keeping them with us for as long as we're capable of taking care of them and the thought of not being able to is very stressful.
She told me not to worry. She's been doing this for years, and cases like ours are considered a 'slam dunk'. And while my head is so incredibly relieved to hear that, my heart and my gut are churning.
Ugh.
Well...I'm off to get something done before her visit tomorrow.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Monday, January 2, 2012
Nap time.
The other day, I worked on something that's been hanging over my head for several months. When she came down for Bugster and Bubster's wedding this summer, my sister got some skirts and sundresses for Scooter. Scooter loves skirts of all lengths, but she especially loves broomstick skirts and the like, so we were thrilled when my sister found these for her at a garage sale when she was visiting.
The only problem was that neither sundress fit right, and the skirts were a little too big around for her. So a couple of nights ago, I used the seam ripper and took the bodices off the 2 sundresses. My eyes were killing me by the time I was done, because I am at the age when I'm seriously needing bifocals, but I got them off without too much hassle, and I didn't even slice the tip of my finger open with the seam ripper. I'll call it a win.
My sister also picked up a little babydoll-type blouse that fit Scooter sort of funky. The bottom of the blouse wasn't really flared much. It had a bit of a crisscrossed halter look at the top and tied behind the back with little off the shoulder sleeves that drove Scooter crazy. So I took it apart. I took the halter and ties off, added some elastic to the back of it, and I made it into a little skirt. Scooter will wear it with a pair of leggings underneath, and she's thrilled to have yet another skirt to choose from when getting dressed.
I have a couple more skirts I have to make some adjustments to today, and I've got to do a little mending, but the sewing machine won't be on the table by the time evening hits. It will be put away downstairs in it's semi-permanent place once again. Actually, I had at least intended to get it put away when I started writing this post a couple of days ago, but I didn't finish my mending like I thought I would. If I don't get it wrapped up tomorrow, I will get it back downstairs. At least the sewing machine is put in its case, isn't taking up table space, and is waiting patiently for me to decide what to do with it.
I had to go downstairs last night to look for the elastic for the skirts and to grab some thread. When I was looking for the elastic, I found 6 bobbins for my sewing machine that I hadn't seen in years. I was so excited! This will make my life so much easier! It's been rough working with only 1 or 2 bobbins over the years. They've already been put in my sewing box, so I'll know where they are the next time I use my sewing machine.
When I was downstairs looking for stuff in my craft area, I so wanted to just start sorting things again. It's the first I've felt like that in quite awhile. I just wanted to get lost in sorting for a few hours, but the boxes are going to have to wait. I need to make sure that I have as much done as I can to be ready for the guardian ad litem's visit to the house. She's not going to care how much I need to sort in the craft room. The laundry is a much bigger priority, and the 3 loads I got done yesterday barely dented the pile.
The pile looks comfy enough to jump in, though. Sort of like a leaf pile without all the dust and scritchy scratchy things.
Maybe I'll just pretend it's a bed and take a nap.
The only problem was that neither sundress fit right, and the skirts were a little too big around for her. So a couple of nights ago, I used the seam ripper and took the bodices off the 2 sundresses. My eyes were killing me by the time I was done, because I am at the age when I'm seriously needing bifocals, but I got them off without too much hassle, and I didn't even slice the tip of my finger open with the seam ripper. I'll call it a win.
My sister also picked up a little babydoll-type blouse that fit Scooter sort of funky. The bottom of the blouse wasn't really flared much. It had a bit of a crisscrossed halter look at the top and tied behind the back with little off the shoulder sleeves that drove Scooter crazy. So I took it apart. I took the halter and ties off, added some elastic to the back of it, and I made it into a little skirt. Scooter will wear it with a pair of leggings underneath, and she's thrilled to have yet another skirt to choose from when getting dressed.
I have a couple more skirts I have to make some adjustments to today, and I've got to do a little mending, but the sewing machine won't be on the table by the time evening hits. It will be put away downstairs in it's semi-permanent place once again. Actually, I had at least intended to get it put away when I started writing this post a couple of days ago, but I didn't finish my mending like I thought I would. If I don't get it wrapped up tomorrow, I will get it back downstairs. At least the sewing machine is put in its case, isn't taking up table space, and is waiting patiently for me to decide what to do with it.
I had to go downstairs last night to look for the elastic for the skirts and to grab some thread. When I was looking for the elastic, I found 6 bobbins for my sewing machine that I hadn't seen in years. I was so excited! This will make my life so much easier! It's been rough working with only 1 or 2 bobbins over the years. They've already been put in my sewing box, so I'll know where they are the next time I use my sewing machine.
When I was downstairs looking for stuff in my craft area, I so wanted to just start sorting things again. It's the first I've felt like that in quite awhile. I just wanted to get lost in sorting for a few hours, but the boxes are going to have to wait. I need to make sure that I have as much done as I can to be ready for the guardian ad litem's visit to the house. She's not going to care how much I need to sort in the craft room. The laundry is a much bigger priority, and the 3 loads I got done yesterday barely dented the pile.
The pile looks comfy enough to jump in, though. Sort of like a leaf pile without all the dust and scritchy scratchy things.
Maybe I'll just pretend it's a bed and take a nap.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
It's official.
Sort of.
Christmas Eve's mail included paperwork from the attorney letting us know that he had petitioned the court on our behalf. Things were finally in motion. We knew to expect more soon, but we didn't realize how soon that would be.
Last week's mail included more paperwork from the attorney letting us know the name of the court appointed visitor who will be working on the girls' behalf. Her report is due to the courts by January 17th, so she will be calling us to set up a meeting with the girls very soon. We're assuming we'll be hearing from her in the next couple of days. I think all the court offices are closed tomorrow for the New Year holiday, but I wouldn't be surprised, if we get the call Tuesday. I guess we'll see.
So that which we have dreaded is upon us.
So far, we're surviving. My stomach didn't start flipping over the paperwork that came on Christmas Eve. In fact it came as almost a relief, because it was finally here. We can now deal with it in the present instead of as an unknown future thing. The paperwork that came yesterday, though? Yeah. Not quite as much a relief. At the same time, the anxiety meds are doing their job, and I'm actually doing okay with it all. For now. We'll see what happens when we actually have a court date.
In the meantime, I'll try to keep on keepin' on. I'll try to get caught up on the laundry and attempt to get the girls' rooms under control once again. It really doesn't take a lot for them to get messed up, but at least it only takes a fraction of the time to get them back in order that it used to take. The frustration comes from the fact that Scooter would keep her own room fairly clean, if it weren't for Hopper 'helping' put things in there. She just opens the door and lobs whatever is in her hand at the time into the room and then shuts the door.
I'm also going to make an effort to do a daily blog post again, a resolution, if you will. Posting has been such a huge help over the last couple of years, and I've really missed it and the imaginary friends I've met while blogging. While I will be trying to post daily for awhile, I know I'm not going to have the mental wherewithal to read blogs until we're through this guardianship situation. Hopefully, I'll be able to catch up here and there once this big stressor is behind us.
Until then...
Wishing everyone Happy & Healthy New Year Blessings!
Christmas Eve's mail included paperwork from the attorney letting us know that he had petitioned the court on our behalf. Things were finally in motion. We knew to expect more soon, but we didn't realize how soon that would be.
Last week's mail included more paperwork from the attorney letting us know the name of the court appointed visitor who will be working on the girls' behalf. Her report is due to the courts by January 17th, so she will be calling us to set up a meeting with the girls very soon. We're assuming we'll be hearing from her in the next couple of days. I think all the court offices are closed tomorrow for the New Year holiday, but I wouldn't be surprised, if we get the call Tuesday. I guess we'll see.
So that which we have dreaded is upon us.
So far, we're surviving. My stomach didn't start flipping over the paperwork that came on Christmas Eve. In fact it came as almost a relief, because it was finally here. We can now deal with it in the present instead of as an unknown future thing. The paperwork that came yesterday, though? Yeah. Not quite as much a relief. At the same time, the anxiety meds are doing their job, and I'm actually doing okay with it all. For now. We'll see what happens when we actually have a court date.
In the meantime, I'll try to keep on keepin' on. I'll try to get caught up on the laundry and attempt to get the girls' rooms under control once again. It really doesn't take a lot for them to get messed up, but at least it only takes a fraction of the time to get them back in order that it used to take. The frustration comes from the fact that Scooter would keep her own room fairly clean, if it weren't for Hopper 'helping' put things in there. She just opens the door and lobs whatever is in her hand at the time into the room and then shuts the door.
I'm also going to make an effort to do a daily blog post again, a resolution, if you will. Posting has been such a huge help over the last couple of years, and I've really missed it and the imaginary friends I've met while blogging. While I will be trying to post daily for awhile, I know I'm not going to have the mental wherewithal to read blogs until we're through this guardianship situation. Hopefully, I'll be able to catch up here and there once this big stressor is behind us.
Until then...
Wishing everyone Happy & Healthy New Year Blessings!
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