Compulsive hoarding is a mental disorder that is just beginning to be understood. As a hoarder, I have acquired things over the years with a specific purpose in mind at the time of the acquisition, used some of those items for their intended purposes, forgotten the goal for different objects, but now that I find that they have outlived their purpose in my life I am struggling to rid myself of those same things.

You can read the start of my journey here.

Friday, December 31, 2010


So. My final post of the year. Wow. I can't believe 2010 has come to an end.

In many ways, I'm going to miss 2010. It's been a good year. A really good year, even. It's been full of struggles, full of honesty, reflection and self realization, full of hard work and full of hope and the additions to our family of Bubster and Frank when Bugster and Bubster wed back in April and they took guardianship of Frank over the summer. 

How can I not miss it?

It's been a good year.

But I am so full of hope for 2011 and what it holds in store for our family, that I will gladly bid this year adieu.

In spite of having an infection in my incision wound, I'm feeling quite well. I'm so thankful that I had the surgery. I'm already wishing I'd done it years ago. I am hoping that it will make the difference in my health that I'm thinking it's going to make. 

Last year, I was at my heaviest weight of all time, having taken 6 or 7 courses of steroids after coming down with the swine flu. I was sick all winter. I eventually lost 15 of the 30 pounds I'd gained due to the steroids, but when I came home from surgery, I'd gained the 15 pounds back from the swelling and fluid retention I was experiencing. I wondered, if it was going to take another year to lose it.

It didn't.

Unlike most women who gain weight after a hysterectomy, I have somehow beat the odds so far. I lost the 15 pounds I brought home from the hospital plus an additional 15 pounds. And in spite of the fact that I still have over 100 pounds to lose, I'm 30 pounds closer to my goal and the least I've weighed in 3 years. It gives me hope that I will eventually be successful at losing the weight just like I'm going to eventually finish dehoarding and organizing my home.

I am confident that 2011 is going to be a wonderful continuation of the journey I started January 9, 2010

In the meantime, we'll be wrapping up 2010 in a couple of hours. About 30 minutes from now, I'll wake up Hopper, Scooter and Mom (We're still blessed with her company due to a storm that moved in yesterday! We're thrilled!), so we can ring in the New Year together. 

We'll be enjoying our annual New Year's fondue. We'll be fixing chicken, beef and Inside Out Cheeseburgers, and we'll enjoy fresh broccoli, cauliflower, carrots and celery with a Ranch dip made with Greek yogurt instead of sour cream along with cheese and crackers. Once we're done eating, we'll toast with sparkling cider and watch the big ball drop while calling loved ones at the stroke of midnight to wish them Happy New Year. To top things off, it looks like The Hubster will even be able to join us this year!

Oh. You're wondering what Inside Out Cheeseburgers are. 

I understand. 

They're a fun fondue food and taste amazing. They're made by whisking up a couple of eggs and adding whatever spices you wish to use. I just use a little pepper and garlic salt. Add the lean ground beef, (it holds together better in the hot oil than turkey burger) and bread crumbs and mix it together until it's fairly dry but not crumbly. 

Form a ball using 1 to 2 tablespoons of the burger mixture and push a hole down into the center of the ball. Insert a piece of cheese in the hole. I've used Velveeta before, but it disintegrates in oil too easily and seeps out. So use something harder. This year I'm trying Colby Jack cheese, although I may try cheddar next year depending on how things turn out tonight. Anyway, you finish them off by rolling them in breadcrumbs, because they hold together better that way and cook them in your fondue pot until done, which will vary depending on the size. 

So there you have it. We're going to have fun tonight. I had an amazing 2010 filled with both ups and downs but an awful lot of growth and loss. And I'm going to embrace 2011 for all it's worth.

May each of you have an amazing New Year every day of 2011 and be blessed beyond measure! 

Here's to you. To me. To us. 



  1. So glad you're doing mostly okay... and I know you're glad to still have your mom with you.

    Happy New Year to you and yours and WHY aren't you EVER online when I want to chat???


  2. Have a Blessed New Year & a wonderful weekend!

  3. Happy New Year to you, too! Looking forward to chatting again when everything settles down!

  4. I just stumbled across your blog and enjoyed reading a couple of the posts. I'm looking forward to reading more. Happy New Year to you and yours!

  5. Happy New Year! and it doesn't surprise me that you are beating the odds yet again ! You are an amazing gal

  6. Glad to hear your recovery is progressing steadily now -- and love that your mom got to stay those extra time. :)

    A very happy new year to you and yours! May all good things from 2010 snowball into 2011!

  7. So nice to catch up with you again!

    Love inside out burgers, but we just grill 'em the old fashioned way...

    Enjoy 2011!

  8. Happy New Year to you!!! You will beat the odds because you are amazing!

  9. I keep checking in to see how you are doing.
    Hope all is ok with you and your family.
    I hope you are still making progress.

  10. I hope all is well, have had no update....worried.

  11. Thanks all! Happy New Year to each of you, too, even though I'm a bit late in wishing you all a wonderful 2011!

    Thanks for checking in on me. All is going well. I'm still just enjoying Mom but I'm still making progress. I'll try to do better at posting more often instead of taking so long between posts.

    Here's to all of you in 2011!


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